Thoughts of being left alone !

Sometimes it was for me,

and those thoughts were  for me alone.

and at times it vanishes into

the darkest corner of my life.

the darkest shades of the pruned life

with all my eternal thoughts are in exile.

Searching of a home by

the striding in to the passing sideways,

running through the infinite lanes,

of an unknown city of menuquined fathom (disordered lampposts) and

floating on the path ahead the crouching(timid) old Pamphlets.

I look for my sisters, my friends hastily

into the brightest faces of the familiar passers by-;

but it seems to me of unrecognized quest on them,

as if the thought of loss  has stolen

the generic of their emotion, the basic of being human.(nonchalant)

I move forward and shake their stunned body,

i also slap them , my being  left an ambiguous

eventually I kiss them, insatiable as a flame

it doesn't dispel wonderer in me, they give me a mystical gaze

to let me watch if the thoughts have taken shelter there

or they might have left a clue or foot impression.

But no,its one of those faces which i am able to see,

is this my face with no turds and teds?

no trace of a route , no distant signs of the fugitive thought(in blue) (fugitives in blue)

and hence it(the Disapproval) drops me alone again,

in to the midst of the road of fathom and annoyance

the road which stretches little behind the infernal horizon

where the sun sets.

Oh there the sun sets??? i see the hope.

i get up, i subsequently collect my limbs

my knees scratched, my face bruised

i remove the dirt off  my cloths, my chest holds the aghast, breathing

which is nearly making me off to spree. (Fear of never finding it...)

Is the sun who is the culprit, is he stolen my thought

or lured it for better moon?

i look in to the eyes of

the escaping sun, if i might see the answer  in his coveted eyes

//within a stone's throw , I could have spit on his face

It wasn't the sun who stole my thought,

neither had the moon lured it away from me.

It was me who lost it all , as i wanted to grab it within.